My Soul is tired...

Seeking refuge in a world of war
Soul seeking
Searching
I'm yearning for more
More than this life I live from day to day
Trying to remember there's gotta be more the more my heart breaks
I've grown tired
Soul weary
Dreary days seem to await
Holding back tears in my swollen eyes
Ready for my earth to quake
Passions running white-hot inside of me
No outlet, only closed doors
Wanting to profit from the gifts but not willing to use them like whores
I'm tired.
Tired of hearing what He's gonna do
Ready for Him to do it.
Patience is a virtue
But when my heart views the place that I am in vs. the place that He's promised me
Hell, that ain't no comparison.
The only guarantee for me are words that were wispered long ago...
Did I hear you?
Do you feel the same way?
Have I crushed your plans with all of my mistakes?
And if it's not me, what is it that's causing the anti-me barrier to almost crush me from the inside and out.
Doubts about who I am to be clouding me
Stressing so much that I can't even remember a good nights sleep
Living with a family that loves me but it seems they need me to not be here
In love with a woman 300 miles away both wishing she was here.
I'm tired...
Tired in my very core
Sore at the way the pages turn
Longing for the pain to cure
Heart hurting in a way that I can't massage away
I just need...
I just need...
Rest God!
Give me rest please!!!!
I'm tired!!!!
Can't you hear me!!!
I'm tired!!!!
If you really care about me, then come see about me
Let me know that you're here in a real way
I'm tired and I'm waiting on the only one that can to come and take this pain away.