Call to Singlehood; Point of Discussion

So...

today I sent a txt out to a few ppl and asked the question:
Is it crazy to think that ppl that have had sex b4 they were married are les likely to be called by God to singlehood (extensive, possibly lifetime).

I got some Pretty interesting answers. I won't put name of the person. just their sex. share your thoughts...

Female: No, I don't believe that. They can still be called to singleness. Everyone who has had sex may not necessarily have the desire or need to continue having sex...just because u have had sex b4 does not mean you want to be married...I believe if you have been called to a life of singleness you will naturally have no desire or a very low desire to be in a relationship


Male: I don't think anyone is called to be single permanently. Not good for man to be alone.

Male: Not at all. It kind of makes sense.

Female: Hmmmm I dunno. God is capable of anything so ppl probably have been bought fought God on it

Male: Somewhat, cause they could've had a crazy drug problem or just have been part of a wild incident/past.

Female: Interesting question. I need to find the sermon my pastor preached about that. He believes a high sex drive is an indicator that you're not called to a life of singleness.

Male: ...I think God is telling me that. ...I want to believe however that it's a journey to get to a place where sex is not a motivation for marriage...

Male: I would agree that it is less likely... that's just my thought.

Male: ...I'm not sure of sp,etjomg as huge as the call to singlehood is circumstantial I think it precedes human decision or indecision.

Female: It could really go either way. His plan is exactly that.

Male: I don't think the two are related...

Male: No. I think our calling(s) in general are independent [of] our decisions. This includes marriage too.


The interesting thing is I started off thinking it was less likely to happen. And then, somewhere along the way, the reminders that God's purpose supercedes us hit me and I realized it's has nothing to do with whether or not we've had sex. It has everything to do with God's purpose.

Worth it?

I laid it all out there.

No room for question on my part.

Is/was it worth it?

Only time will tell.

It's always interesting when you let someone know that you feel some type of way about them. In that moment, you don't really know if they're agreeing to save face or if they're truly reciprocating. All will be revealed in it's season. It's truly a world of infinite possibilities. I can see the beauty in each outcome. I'm hoping for "the best" and at the same time realizing that idk quite what that is. I could say the best is the "happily ever after" later on down the road. But the best that God intends could be a solid platonic friendship. Either way, I'll pursue it passionately and with caution as per my instructions. I don't wish to jump ahead or force anything. I wish to live in the now and enjoy each day for what it is. I have, however, think about the implications of it all. The potential of it is mind-blowing to say the least.

Today.

Just today.

Focus on today.

The path I'm on will lead me to God's tomorrow.

No need for worrying about it.

It's already done.

In place.

And waiting for me to get to it.

The journey begins.

Over the river and through the woods...

Peace.

Be.

Does anyone read this thing

Peace y'all.

It's been a minute since i've written on this thing. Just got back in position to do so thanks to this app on my phone.

Does anyone read this? Whether they do or not, I'm going to try to get better about blogging.

Enjoy the ride.

What a little sleep can do...

It is quite amazing what sleep can do for you. Like give you the
opportunity to not think about something for long enought to have a
perspective change. It's quite a beautiful thing, really. I often joke
around on IMs about sleep and personify it as a woman- for only a woman
could make me feel the way sleep does. I've been known to have status
messages like:

"I hope sleep puts it on me tonight, I need it!"

"Sleep has officially made me its trick!"

"Sleep got that good stuff"

And my favorite,

"Sleep will make you call your wife and say, "I aint never coming
home"!
(Bonus points if you can tell me what that is an allusion to...)

Last night, I came home feeling like crap after some decisions made and
after having a young lady approach me about some foolishness (like we're
in middle school and not adults) and I just couldn't figure out why I
made the decisions I do or why I can't seem to be consistent in my get
it together process. This morning, I woke up before my alarm went of
despite going to sleep soo late, and I had a moment of clarity where the
mistakes mattered little in comparison to the opportunities to make
better decisions in the future based off the lessons learned from the
mistakes of the past. I will waste no time hoping it will last forever.
It won't. Nothing in this life does. I will appreciate it and thank the
Most High for the clean slate of grace and mercy and the opportunity to
start anew. So let it be...Ashe

Kan't Get Right

That's what I'm considering changing my name to.

What is the deal? Seriously?!!?

1 step forward. 2 to 3 steps back in more than one area.

The cycle continues in shuffle mode.
And I feel helpless, frustrated, angered by my own choices, feelings,
and struggles.

Signed,
Hopefully 1 day I'll learn to... get right and then get right.

A-word Youth

Greetings, earthlings! What's goin' on, beautiful people. If you're like me, your answer going something along the lines of everything and nothing at all or I can't call it! Thus the subject of this blog. You know, I've realized that, because of the events and the stresses of life, I tend to not fully be able to but into words where I stand emotionally or mentally. I've been in places where I've stressed out or worried myself to tears about things that I face. Now, I guess as a means of coping and trying not to worry, I've become an A-word Youth...

Main Entry: ap·a·thet·ic
Function: adjective
: having or showing little or no feeling or emotion
- ap·a·thet·i·cal·ly /-i-k(-)l/ adverb

ap·a·thet·ic

–adjective

1.	having or showing little or no emotion: apathetic behavior.

2.	not interested or concerned; indifferent or unresponsive: an apathetic audience.

Yep, in a lot of areas, I've become quite apathetic. In one respect, I kind of feel it's a good thing because it does stop me from having to deal with my wavering emotions or worrying excessively about things that I have to face. On the other hand, I can see in different areas how my being apathetic has made me not "look forward" to certain things (i.e.. graduation, marriage, jobs...) A lot of my apathy is the result of past failures and disappointments. Because I wanted something to happen a certain way or at a certain time and it didn't, my method of coping was that I stopped caring. 2 other area where I see this is (1) in the area of a job/gig and (2) my car. These are 2 things tied to finances and because the desired results have not happened in the time that I hoped, I have become apathetic about them both to a degree. It's sad though, because finances are not one of those things you can throw into the abyss and forget about. It's always in your face. Whether it's wondering what you're going to eat or how you're going to pay for something. It's always there. Thereby, my apathy in that area tends to be short-lived and I try to come out and do something about it and it doesn't happen so I go back into the cave to see if I can throw it deeper and hope that eventually it will take care of itself.

Apathy, in a lot of ways, has become a way of life for me. I know that there are some things that suffer as a result of it and we'll see how those turn out in the by and by. But for right now, I am made the first step- admitting where I am. What happens now, I don't have a clue but we shall see... Until next time, peace be!

So much things to say...

So... it's been a while. The last time I was here, I told you guys that if some things didn't change that I was going to have to make some drastic decisions. Well, one of the most pressing things has been taking care of- proving that God is soo faithful!!!

Let's see... since then, I've had some great things happen. I got a chance to go and sing at the IAJE conference in Toronto, Ontario. It was a great experience. Canada was lovely! It made it's way on the list of places I wanna live if I have to leave the US. While I'm thinking about it, let me say this- I love my school. I love Texas Southern University! Don't talk bad about it to me because there is a small chance that you might get bladed! It's like one of those family members that you know do the fool but they family so you love 'em anyway!!! TSU is the reason I got a chance to go to Toronto expense free. I mean, I didn't have to pay for a passport, room, food, nada!!!! I had a wonderful time.

In other news, I moved a couple of weeks ago. I am now living with one of my friends that I met at the Awakenings Movement. It's going well soo far. We're dog-sitting which is proving to be a great opportunity for growth!

I'm in school- hopefully for my last semester! I have 21 hours (please pray!!!) and Prayerfully, the date to save is May 10th, 2008!! I could go on and on but I'm in a crunch. I'll holla!